Jealousy and envy... such useless emotions.

At 10:15pm, my lovely fiancé calls me after his performance in Greek to let me know that he can't have a long chat like we had planned because he's going out with some people... many of which are quite important and influential in the Ottawa theatre scene.

Where am I right now? Sitting in my PJs on my Sudbury-hotel-room bed with the laptop on my lap, surrounded by an empty chocolate bar wrapper, scripts and theatre theory books. Why am I not enjoying some pleasant social, networking time? Granted, the show I'm working on right now has had rave reviews and our opening/closing shows here in the freezing North will probably come with its share of gatherings... all of which I will miss because I'll be cleaning, gathering, organizing, striking, loading, etc.

Like my title says, what I'm feeling is completely useless... even more useless when I'm intelligent enough to recognize and rationalize the emotion. Even so, it still sucks to be lonely in Sudbury while your fiancé is having fun in Ottawa.

Personal note aside... on to work thoughts!
I'm really looking forward to working on ICARUS. I've re-read the script recently and sent Stewart loads of ideas (ummm... changes.) Most of them he received in a positive fashion, but he's so busy with work and Greek right now that I doubt he'll time to implement the changes before we start rehearsals. Well, I've always like the workshop rehearsal process... we'll work the script and the "mise en scène" and see where it takes us.

I've brought my copy of 52 Pick-up with me... so I can really get a grip on my lines. Hmmm... well... I haven't even looked at it yet. It's difficult, working 8 to 10 hours a day on one show and then coming home with enough energy to work on another one. I've decided to devote my energies more to my school readings... and I've finished one book since I've been here - so that's an accomplishment. AND, I'm performing in two private parties for Eddie May Mysteries the week I get home. Sure, it's a show I've done three times already. Sure, it's a part I've rehearsed - once. However, I'm not playing the part I've done those three other shows... I'm playing the other female character. So I have to learn a completely new set of lines and blocking and will get no real rehearsals with the cast prior to the shows.

Who needs drugs? Eddie May Murder Mysteries give me enough of an adrenaline rush to keep me going!

That's about it for now. It's 11:33pm... Stewart hasn't called. I guess I'd best get back to my MFA readings... sigh.