"Expect the worst and you'll never be surprised."

That's usually my motto. It protects me... keeps me in my comfort zone... and gives me power over the unknown.

Well, for some reason, I forgot my motto this week. Maybe it's due to overconfidence. I don't know.

I started sending out feelers ... emails to theatre companies I've worked for in the past... theatre companies that gave me work without hesitation before I had even finished my undergrad.

"How do you get work in this business?... all you have to do is ask!" That's another one of my mottos... it's the one I must have been going by this week when I should have been thinking of the previously mentioned one.

It turns out, both of the companies that I pretty much "expected" to get work from don't have anything for me next year.

Huh?

But I can do anything... direct, act, dance, sing, manage, type, translate, teach...

(dejected) huh.

This isn't the end of the world. There are many other options and other opportunities. In fact, I've already received two calls from a company I've never worked with before... and it's looking promising. I can apply for grants. I can audition. I can create my own work with the little money I have. I can work retail. I can, and will, do anything really. I guess I'm just a little disappointed in myself for being so damn overconfident. Nothing is for sure in this world, especially in this business. And I knew that... I just forgot for a second. Here I was assuming that, when I got back from tour, I'd have at least four contracts lined up... which wouldn't be enough to truly live well, but I wouldn't be panicking. Now, I've got two "maybe" contracts in the works and nothing else.

Um.
Do you want fries with that?
I'm so glad that I pursued higher education.